The end of 2016 was bittersweet. I ended my best year of Running consistent even having some PR times for my 5k and 10k runs after making great progress coming back to run mode after having my Daughter. I was doing what I needed to do to be strong again and finally incorporating strength training to get stronger. But as I was working towards a greater 2017 I experienced some low back pains and even a nagging ankle pain whenever I would run. These caused me to take time off during the year.
On the back of my mind was a gut feeling that perhaps something more was happening but when you in a run high, is hard to remind yourself sometimes to listen to the signs. After my huge success at Berkeley 10K run in November, I knew I had to go see a specialist because my left ankle was not feeling normal, my alignment began to feel off and a nagging hip pinch began to bother me.
End of December came and suddenly the worse hip pain along with low back and tender ankle wouldn’t go away. It was uncomfortable to sleep at night and carrying my Daughter was impossible due to the stiffness my low back. I went to my Acupuncturist hoping to relieve some of the pain since in the past it had helped. But even that wasn’t enough. Finally first week of January approached and went in to see a PT to address my problems.
The good news is I’ll be able to run and no surgery is needed but I have Sciatica which is a pain that comes from my leg low back down to center of glutes through back of hamstring and calves into my foot. If you are wondering what is Sciatica, it is one of the largest nerve affecting the lower area of your body. Normally you experience one side of leg. This happens due to weak Hips and Glutes strength. For women who had babies Hip & Glutes are parts that can take more than a year to gain strength back and in my case since I hadn’t been doing a great job even prior to Baby, I am sure it’s caught up to me! Running with sciatica has been my biggest nightmare.
While I am grateful that what things aren’t worse, I can’t help but to get sad not be able to know when that day will come when I can wake up with no discomforts. Since early January I been testing what workouts strengthen what I need instead of abbreviating as well testing my body on Runs and when I get flare ups visiting my PT or Acupuncturist for relieve. At work I am in the process to getting a standing table versus a standard desk to allow me not to be sitting most of the day.
This year I’ve been diving into living a more Holistic lifestyle than ever. Finding different alternatives in ways to live my life with less pain and discomforts. I know there are other people living with greater pain than mines so part of me feels grateful that I can still be active.
I won’t lie but early in the year I went with days just crying by myself wondering if I will Run again without feeling pain. At first looking at my IG page made me jealous to see others Running achievements. I wondered if I am not a Runner what other can I be??
When I stopped feeling sorry for myself and complaining so much to my Boyfriend was when I began to feel hopeful. Recently I was listening to an audiobook called “The Universe has your back” by Gabrielle Bernstein and she said something that stuck out. “The universe will only give you what you can handle.” So if this is what the universe says I can handle than I must deal with it as best how I deal with things. Just keeping fighting a good fight!
My run plan has completely changed. For now there are no races scheduled for the year. While I had my hopes for possibly running my first marathon post baby, that dream is been put on hold for now. Having no training schedule has felt weird but also given me more time to just be a Mom, enjoy this time that my Daughter is coming in her Toddler years! Been focused on incorporating lots of stretching, foam rolling, working out my trouble areas to strengthen and develop a program with my PT that works for my body.
This free time has opened up new opportunities like learning and teaching about the use of doTERRA Essential Oils to live more natural and holistic lifestyle. Sometime that gives me great joy to help others find a way to support their lifestyle. I am looking into run coaching certification and into opportunities that fall in line with my values.
Another thing I am working at the same time is coaching others. This was something I began to do before my Daughter was born with Beachbody and fell in love with the idea to supporting others in their goals! I am working towards continuing to coach but incorporating Running and overall how to live a healthier lifestyle for Moms. I am not 100% sure how to combine all I’ve learned over the years in my Run journey but I know whatever it is will be greater than my current vision.
Turns out what I thought would be a crappy year is morphing into a year of growth, lots of learning and finding a stronger woman underneath it all. You can say the universe does have my back!!